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Friday, March 16th, 2018
11:54 am - As American as pie...
I went to a Hornets game last weekend. I have been fortunate that my job provides tickets to each employee and one guest and I typically score an extra one or two or even go as the guest of a co-worker. This year I was able to score 4 tickets and take Corey, Cam, and mom before the Christmas break. Anyway AutismAfter18 had an event and so I took Corey to the game. I don't know why I noticed maybe it was because of the Olympics and the sour taste NBC gave me after the Parkland shooting. It could have been because AutismAfter18 arranged for us to watch the practice before the game and I was there for longer than usual. At any rate what the heck is up with the National Anthem, military shout outs, and general "this is Amerika!, stand up or LEAVE!" chest poke outs all through the game?

First of all going to a sporting event is expensive so I don't know why I am forced to participate in the chest poking after I have shelled out a nice sum of my hard earned money. Second and I know this is just MY opinion but the National Anthem is not a good song. It's rarely sung well, the poem it's based on is not really much of a rallying cry or something that warms your heart or for that matter really relevant to most people's experience of being American. It's just not a good song IMHO and hearing it sung off key at a sporting event standing on the concrete floors or some death spiral stairs at an arena is torture not entertainment. Third it's not just the anthem but then all military personnel are asked to stand and once again we have to stand up and cheer and poke out our chests for another not so good song which I don't even know the title for I just know some country singer is talking about being proud to be an American because at least he knows he's free and I am thinking American's aren't the only ones with some form or democracy or "freedom". Then and I admit I am not sure if this happens every game but a veteran was highlighted shown on the screen and we were asked to stand again.

Okay if we must have these national displays of patriotism why not make it more inclusive? Why not play the black national anthem https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ya7Bn7kPkLo at some of the sporting events? It could be completely representative of the number of African Americans in the area. So maybe the Utah Jazz only plays the anthem at one or two home games while in Atlanta it might be a third or more of the home games. I remember discussing a court case in my constitutional law class about prayer before government meetings. I can't remember a lot of it but I do remember instead of a moment of silence or a Christian prayer in this instance each meeting a different religion was represented which I thought was an interesting twist. I think it would do two things first the outcry from white Americans would be huge and they would ask some of the very questions black Americans ask at the games like why is it necessary. Second it would be an opportunity to enlighten people that there is a black National Anthem and it's frankly a lot more appealing to the ears. There is a better chance of singing it successfully and the lyrics are a little more relevant to at least some of our experience as Americans. Just sayin...

On another note I went to see the Waitress Musical last night and LOVED it. I love the movie and I love musical theater anyway but I thought the songs were beautiful and the performances were amazing. I typically attend 8-10 shows per year and I am fortunate to find deals and opportunities for free tickets every now and then but not once have I been forced to sit through a chest poke out or listen to the National anthem sang off key.
Just sayin...

I am sorry but I don't get our need for constant mores around being American chief among them reciting the pledge of allegiance and or standing for the National Anthem at every public event. I don't see this outside the U.S. I don't remember seeing it when I watch the World Cup and I don't remember seeing it when T and I watched Gaelic football matches at the pubs in Ireland.

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Monday, February 19th, 2018
11:56 am - Birthday in Cabo...

I had an amazing time in Cabo. I have been very fortunate in a lot of the trips T and I plan are timed around my birthday. It allows me a chance to travel to places I have always wanted to go on a day that is beginning to leave a little pang as the number gets higher. Last year I went to the Cliffs of Moher on what turned out to be an absolutely beautiful day with zero crowds. T and I were able to hike the entire trail with a perfect view and then on the train ride back from Galway at the end of it all the guide handed me a whiskey shot for a birthday toast. I mean does it get any better than that? Well yes and no. I didn't realize until I arrived in Cabo this was my first trip alone. It's sort of weird to think in 48 years I have never traveled on my own not even to hike but there it is. I actually can do solo quite well. I never had the opportunity to find out how much of my world is about Corey. When he wakes up, what is he going to eat, how will I keep him entertained, who will he spend time with so I can go to work, is he safe? is he happy...

Every day I woke up in Cabo I was greeted with a text from Cam "GM mom. Relax! have fun! I miss you" except on my birthday when he called. I didn't realize until my birthday what a miracle this communication was because my phone was a MESS! I have strengths and T has strengths it is clear when it came to the connectivity part of the program this was T's strength. Left to my own devices I was disconnected 70% of the time and when I did connect I received about 100 missed messages and birthday well wishes.

I hiked all over. There were so many cliffs and trails and beaches. I really could have spent the entire trip at the resort and been fine. My villa was amazing and the patio had a great view of the ocean and the pool but while the sun is out I like to be outside. I signed up for an excursion to the arch and lover's beach one day and one day I did an excursion to the marina and a tequila tasting. I figured doing the excursions was the safest route for a loner in Mexico. I was a bit annoyed at the Marina, the yachts and the sketch part was cool but you could see where the Forever 21 and Coach store vibe was taking over the area which is a shame. I don't really understand why Americans need to buy a coach bag in every place on earth. Why make a list of a 1000 places to see before you die if once there you just change it into an outlet mall like the one at home??? It was a bit telling to see all the tiny boats from different excursion companies taking tourists to lover's beach swamped by a big ass yacht. I heard names like Michael Jordan, J Lo, etc. all with big houses and yachts that spend their winters there but the 1% goes nameless and has probably been spending their winters there for ages.

The tequila tasting was very cool. The guide seemed happy when I raised my hand (the only person who had never tasted tequila before). He was quick to say petron was just jet fuel and wasn't refined then proceeded to show us how the tequila is made. I went from tequila novice to expert in 10 tastings :) I would have purchased the strawberry one which is rare for me I am frugal enough to resist bringing trophies home but the cost to ship it was twice as much as the savings I was offered.

Turns out I enjoy food but it's really not high on my list of objectives without T to point out the place or dish we MUST try or my sons to bend our entire itinerary around meals.
I had a decent amount of tacos and cocktails watching the ocean. I like vodka with cranberry and pineapple juice. I like sushi and tacos. I like decadent desserts especially on my birthday and the restaurants on the resort fulfilled my requirements with a solid B.  Definitely not Gary Danko though and this is the moment where I acknowledge T for introducing me to Gary Danko, lobster trap, poutines, and every other food marvel we've enjoyed during our travels :)

I was outside enjoying the area as much as humanly possible but this did not insulate me from the shooting in Florida. I was so pissed off because my ritual was to fall asleep watching the Olympics so I had NBC on. I turned off the Today show and never watched it again after Matt Lauer interviewed one of the students from Columbine who had formed a prayer circle and later discovered his sister had been killed. I can't remember having such an immediate and angry response to the tv as I did when he asked that child "so how did you feel to know while you were praying for the kids with you your sister was dying?" this isn't an exact quote but it's close enough. Anyway I woke up to a call from Cam and sweet messages from my brothers and then Hoda interviews this beautiful young girl. She is maybe 16? and she is talking about hiding behind bookshelves and cabinets when a student suggests holding up books and apparently the girl who makes this suggestion was killed. Hoda starts asking the same inane disgusting tragedy porn like questions these bastards always ask and I was screaming and I mean screaming "get that baby off camera" and had to turn it off. I don't understand the media they say it's a reflection of society so I guess I don't understand our society. Why do we need to make porn out of everything? Why can't the text messages from the people hiding in the club, the voice-mails left during 9/11, the 911 calls during Katrina...why can't these remain private? Why do we make attention whores famous? I mean this kid literally commented on a YouTube video he wanted to be a school shooter. If that wasn't a desperate plea for attention I don't know what is and like clock work we give it to them. What's really weird is if he had been Somalian born I can promise you he would be spending the rest of his life in jail being "treated" for radicalization. He would not have flown under the FBI's radar.

Who knows maybe Hoda did me a favor because I didn't turn the tv on for the rest of the trip and I missed the end of the Olympics and from what I hear I didn't miss much. What I can say though is I am missing the sunset and sunrise every day from that patio and drinking coffee quietly with no particular agenda or goal but to be outside and enjoy my surroundings. Oh and of course the highlight of the trip like so many others missed the photo op. I saw a hump back whale crest not once but two days in a row. She was hanging out at the bay about a quarter mile from the resort but I didn't have a professional enough camera to capture it.

current mood: happy

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Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008
5:38 pm - The best thing about me?

Your result for The Best Thing About You Test...


Honesty is the human quality of communicating and acting truthfully. This includes listening, and any action in the human repertoire — as well as speaking. And you? You cannot tell a lie. Both loved ones and strangers should trust you, because you won't (1) lie, (2) lie via omission, or (3) sit there and let lies be told. (Can you even let a sleeping dog lie?) All 7 virtues are a part of you, but your honesty runs deepest.

Your biggest risk is hurting the feelings of your most sensitive friends. However, most appreciate you for your candor.

Honest famous person: George Washington, if you believe the propaganda.

Your raw relative scores follow. 0% is low, and 100% is perfect, nearly impossible. Note that I pitted the virtues against each other, so in some way these are relative scores. It's impossible to score high on all of them, and a low score on one is just relatively low compared to the other virtues.


60% Compassion

22% Intelligence

50% Humility

67% Honesty

63% Discipline

43% Courage

42% Passion

Take The Best Thing About You Test at HelloQuizzy

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Wednesday, October 24th, 2007
10:26 pm - Numerology

Your number is: 3

The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 2

A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.

In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.

If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.

Your Inner Dream number is: 1

An Inner Dream number of 1 means:
You dream of being a leader and one who is in charge. You want to be known for your courage, daring, and original ideas. You seek unconquered heights. People may get a first impression that you are very aggressive and sure of yourself.

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Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
1:19 pm - Erotic Personality Quiz
My Erotic Personality is The Bottom. Take the Erotic Personality Quiz on SageVivant.com and discover yours!I took Sage Vivant's Erotic Personality Quiz and discovered I'm a Bottom!
What is your Erotic Personality? Find out now. Yet another set of results that leaves me a bit bewildered and amused. I stole this quiz from tom_allen but I do have a real post in mind. I just don't have enough time left on my lunch break to write it. Hopefully I will get some quiet time tonight.

current mood: amused

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Friday, September 14th, 2007
1:46 pm - Amused...
One can only be amused when they answer benign questions like what is your favorite color and they get results like this back, lol.

What Are You Hiding (with pics)?

SadnessYou are hiding sadness. One of the most diffcult emotions to hide. You keep smiling day to day even though it is killing you inside. You insist you're fine even when you're not.Someone is always willing to give you a shoulder to cry on. Let the tears flow.
Take this quiz!

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current mood: amused

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Tuesday, September 11th, 2007
10:26 am - Concert Meme
Concert meme taken from nstig8r

Copy this list; leave in the bands you've seen perform live; delete the ones you haven't, and add new ones that you have seen until you reach 25. An asterisk means the previous person had it on their list. Two asterisks means the last two people who did this before you had that band on their list.

1. The Police*
2. Prince*
3. No Doubt
4. Bobby Brown, New Edition & Al. B Sure (it wasn't my 1st concert but I was definitely all about the NE Heartbreak Tour )*
5. Parliament
6. Foreigner
7. Ready for the World
8. Keith Sweat (with Bell Biv Devoe and Johnny Gill)
9. Sting (twice)
10. Janet Jackson (3 times)
11. Elton John
12. Elton John and Billy Joel
13. Tina Turner
14. Boyz 2 Men
15. Sade
16. Amy Grant and 4 Him (well I did!)
17. Stone Temple Pilots
18. Hootie and the Blowfish
19. Cameo
20. Luther Vandross
21. Freddie Jackson
22. DC Talk
23. Tony, Toni, Tone'
24. Pat Benatar
25. Beth Nielsen, Emmylou Harris, Sheryl Crow, and someone else I can't remember LOL

current mood: amused

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Friday, September 7th, 2007
1:02 pm - A Phoenix? Now this is cool :)

What Form Would Your Patronus Take? (With 10 Excellent Results & Pictures)

Your Patronus would be a Phoenix!
Take this quiz!

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Monday, September 3rd, 2007
10:34 pm - Who knew?

Your Score: Hot Tamale

You have an intellectual sexiness factor of 80!

You're hot! You've read a lot. You've done a lot, and there's a lot you'd like to try in the future. You've got a sharp, sexy mind, and few inhibitions to restrain you from exploring all the pleasure you can get. You have few hang-ups, and there's not much you don't know about sex. You're open-minded and able to enjoy things that would make a lesser person squeamish. You're an exceptional treat as a lover, appreciated greatly by those who know the differnce. You were probably bored with a few of the people you've been with in your past, feeling like you had to drag them along with you in the sexual adventures you want to have, and probably dumping them for the same reason. It takes a lot to stimulate you; you realize it's not just about bumping uglies. In the end there's gotta be a lot more to it. Still, there is always room for improvement. Before you can graduate into a true sexual genius, there are a few things you've got to learn, to explore, to think through, talk through, and fuck through. A good place to start is in taking a look at the few things you're still a little hesitant to try. Break down you're last few barriers and discover the outer sexual frontiers, and you'll become a master.

Link: The Intellectual Sexiness Test written by dr_eros on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

current mood: amused

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Monday, June 18th, 2007
2:21 pm - Thanks Anais!
Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is low.
You see love as a gift that you should give to many.
It's hard for you to imagine being with one person at at time...
Let alone one person for the rest of your life!

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!


Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.


Your cynicism is medium.
You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...
But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.
You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.


Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

current mood: good

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Monday, June 11th, 2007
12:11 pm - The only Woody Allen movie I like...go figure
Your Love Life is Like Annie Hall

"A relationship, I think, is like a shark. You know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies."

You believe that love (if you even believe in love!) is a very complicated thing.
Maybe love is pain. Or maybe it's all a big therapy session. You're still figuring it out.

Your love style: Brainy and a bit neurotic

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Realistic and reflective

current mood: amused

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Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
2:59 pm - ghetto fabulous the next?
You Belong in 1993

With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!
What Year Do You Belong In?

I stole this from Tom and since he is 10 years older I find my results a little ironic...

current mood: bored

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Monday, April 16th, 2007
4:11 pm - PG-13???

The Everything Test

There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all.

Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-)

You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more idealist than cynical, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are innovative (93%), adventurous (92%), romantic (86%), intellectual (59%).

College Student82%
Punk Rock80%
Young Professional70%
Life Experience

Your political views would best be described as Socialist, whom you agree with around 100% of the time.
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Upper Middle Class. You make more than 86% of those who have taken this test, and 3% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
By the way, your hottness rank is 67%, hotter than 74% of other test takers.

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current mood: restless

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Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
2:12 pm - I wanna know...
I am roonie 's homie and she wants to know 32 things about me. Ok I am game, especially since I am not in the mood to work at the moment...And if you want to goof off too please feel free to steal this.  I would love to learn more about you...

1. Can you cook? Yes I can cook.  I am nobody's gourmet chef but I do ok.

2. What was your dream growing up? I wanted to be an interpeter for the U.N. and live in a loft in Manhattan.

3. What talent do you wish you had? musician.  I always wanted to learn how to play an instrument (the cello to be exact).

4. Favorite place? Hmm, Charleston probably.

5. Favorite vegetable? don't like them really so I can't pick a favorite, umm mushrooms?

6. What was the last book you read? "The Secret" for the book club.

7. What zodiac sign are you? Aquarius

8. Any tattoos and/or piercings?my ears are pierced does that count?  and yes I have a tattoo

9. Worst habit? interrupting (I am better but still) that is why instant messaging is a god send :)

10. Do we know each other outside of lj? yes, and you have seen me naked too ;)

11. What is your favorite sport? football

12. Negative or optimistic attitude? optimistic

13. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? plot out our next photos of course..

14. Worst thing to ever happen to you? probably breaking my ankle.

15. Tell me one weird fact about you: I remember everything, I have the weirdest set of trivia locked in my brain...

16. Do you have any pets? yes a puppy (not so small anymore though)

17. Do you know how to do the macerana? nope, dumb ass dance, I don't do the electric slide either.

18. What time is it where you are now? 3:15.

19. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? scary

20. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? my nose

21. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? hmm probably I would start out the partner and wind up the conscience.

22. What color eyes do you have? brown

23. Ever been arrested? yes

24. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? get a car

25. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? strawberry bubblicious

26. What's your favorite bar to hang at? I don't hang out in bars, does Starbucks count?

27. Do you believe in ghosts? yes

28. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? lately, sleep :)

29. Do you swear a lot? I would say no but you know me...so yeah I swear much more than I should.

30. Biggest pet peeve? lying, why lie? please just be honest.

31. In one word, how would you describe yourself? optimist

32. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? yep...

current mood: good

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Tuesday, March 20th, 2007
5:13 pm - when in doubt...shop
I am so over the gloomy mood folks.  I just don't do down and out very well.  Yes Corey is still with Vikki and I haven't seen him yet.  Yes we are still struggling with the meds and the bus driver has threatened that he only has one more incident and she is going to kick him off.  And the ankle yes it is still very broken, swollen, and throbbing.  Probably because I am still working, driving, and moving...

But on a lighter note check out the photo idea roonie and I have come up with when I get my cast off.  We are thinking 70s like Angela Davis or Foxy Brown.  Yep I have already ordered the afro wig she has the hot pants so now all I need is the tie up tank and I will be set. Although I would love to pull off the look Michael created on Project Runway last season (check out the user pic).  But I am sure with the makeup and roonie's expertise the pics will turn out really cool.

current mood: optimistic

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Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
9:36 am - Running Late...
I was running late this morning I do believe I am coming down with something, bleh.  I was already late but Monroe Rd. was closed to add insult to injury.  It seems a drunk driver hit a couple of poles knocked out the power for a few blocks (way to go!).  I was resigned to being late and just taking Cam to school.  We are sitting in the car and we are negotiating when he can get out and wait by the door.  You see Cam is a big boy now he is 10 years old and as he carefully explained this morning much too old to have his mom wait with him for school to open.  "It's only 10 minutes mom you know 600 seconds, that's not bad."  So I told him "well I feel better with 300 seconds."  "5 minutes?  Come on mom..." Yes we have conversations like this.  So after we established that 5 minutes or 300 seconds depending on your point of view is the reasonable time he can wait alone.  He reached over to give me a kiss goodbye.  And got shocked, I swear sometimes I am a walking energy field I don't know why.  Anyway he got his bookbag and told me goodbye "bye mom, I love you even though you electrocuted my lips..." Do you see why I spend most of my time smiling when Cameron is around???

current mood: tired

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Thursday, February 15th, 2007
3:26 pm - Happy Birthday to me...
I have been really busy and quite lazy when it comes to posting on LJ.  So I left off with general peace and tranquility Saturday morning.  I did get a lot of housework done, Cam and I had a wonderful breakfast together, and then we went out and ran a few errands in peace.  It is hard to describe what it is like for me to run to Lowes or Walmart on Saturday afternoon without stress.  But needless to say it's a big deal.  I breathed quite a few sighs of relief Saturday.  Then I dropped Cam off with my mom and came home and dressed for Purgatory. roonie  told me she was going on first so I tried to get there relatively early.  Yeah no such luck.  I was pulled over and I must say yes it was because I am black and I was driving my poor excuse for a car.  I don't blame things that happen to me on my race but in this instance... Yeah he stopped me because I am black.  Anyway after a half hour and after he checked everything he could possibly check and came back with zilch.  He finally wrote me a warning ticket for having my plate in the window.  Now granted the back end is wrecked and I can't put the license plate there, a fact he acknowledged by the way.  But he said "you need to get that fixed so you can move your plate out of the window."  No shit sherlock I need a whole new car motherfucker are you offering?  Oops sorry folks I am back there, back at angry black female avenue.  I will shake it off and move on....

I caught the end of roonie  's show and I must say, wow.  The lady did a great job and she was serious business.  There was none of the fake stuff going on and she took the whip like a champ.  Better than I would have let me tell ya.  The other performers weren't as good to me, but I still had a great time.  I went home to an empty house and it was oh so nice.  My plan was to pick Cam up and then get Corey on my way home.  No such luck, Vikki was going to church early AND she had a very upset Corey with her, it seems he was just as bad if not worse than he was when I last saw him, sigh.  Within three hours of being home I had to call Don.  I don't like to call Don as most of you know.   I just don't, it never serves anything but to piss me off.  Unfortunately there weren't many alternatives Corey punched another hole in the wall 2 inches from my head.  I didn't want the next punch to be my face so I was forced to lower my pride and call him.  So Corey is yelling in the background and I call Don and ask if he can take him for a few hours.  Just so he can get a break, maybe it would calm him down the change of scenery.  Don doesn't say anything he is completely silent for like 3 minutes.  So of course I lose my temper... "Don it's a simple yes or no question."  Don, "no it's not maybe I have something else to do and can't drop everything just because you called" Me "Well then the answer is no, still very simple.  But for the record since you only have him for 6 hours out of every month I think you can probably reschedule whatever you have planned until after you bring him home.  Because lord knows you aren't going to keep him long"  Don "What is wrong with HIM?  Why is he yelling like that?"  Me "Newsflash he is autistic asshole did you just wake up from a 15 year long motherfucking dream?  He is autistic remember?"  Don "ok, I will be there in a few minutes"

Bleh!  Then to add insult to injury when he does show up Cam actually asked him if it was ok if he went too.  You know like he is asking a distant uncle or something to join in on an outing.  It was pathetic.  He grudgingly said yes mostly because even Don is not a big enough asshole to look Cam in the face and tell him no when he just wants to spend time with him.  Unfortunately things haven't gotten much better on the Corey front.  He had his doctor's appt on Monday and big surprise the same med (the one that didn't work last time) was prescribed.  Dr. G said to bring him back in 2 weeks and if we don't see an improvement,  if he hasn't calmed down any he will increase the dosage.  Mind you he said "increase the dosage" not change the med, sigh.  But I am pretty much stuck with this now.  There aren't many other options so I have to go with this.  He is the doctor and I am just the looney parent and no matter what I say it just seems to land on deaf ears. I just hope I still have a house when we finally do find an answer.  The real joke is I keep talking to deaf ears because they all treat me like I don't understand.  Like Corey isn't even worse when he is at home safe and comfortable. They think his little tirades at school are something but they don't have anything on me.  So Corey followed up the wall decoration at my house with a bigger one he kicked in the wall at daycare.  Then he followed that up with spitting in the new one on one person's face on Tuesday. Yeah good times. But with all that said...

Vikki had Corey Tues night and I had a quiet night and I got a full night's sleep.  Guess who was the 1st person to call and wish me a Happy Birthday?  Yep Don, strangely he has been the 1st person since I was 19.  He called like Sunday never happened it is the weirdest thing.  But I am long past trying to figure out.  I took yesterday off and D showed me a wonderful time.  As I said elsewhere "there was flogging, and spanking, and bondage, oh my!)  But there was also champagne and chocolate a very sweet gift and tenderness.  I broke down after our session, all the pent up tension of the last few weeks had no where to go.  D pulled me into a hug that I can barely describe and I cried like a baby.  Luckily he doesn't scare easy, but he asked me out for lunch today.  I think partly to continue what we had going yesterday but I think he also wanted to make sure I was alright.  I am not sure what I needed more but the session, the hug, and the concern were greatly appreciated.  I met him at 9:00 yesterday morning and I didn't get home until 2:30.  I took a nice long nap and then wound up rushing to pick Cam up like I had been at work all day.  Mom surprised me with a party to go with dinner.  I thought we would all get together and have dinner and that would be it.  But when I got there she had balloons and music and a wonderful cake from the bakery and she ordered dinner so we wouldn't have to deal with Corey and the crowds.  They all bought gifts for me and I danced with Troy and I danced with Cameron.  It was lovely,  the perfect end to the day.  And to top it all off?  Corey went to bed without a peep.  I was so relieved because my arms and legs were like wet noodles I must admit.  There is no way I would have been able to handle him if he had decided to act up.  

It's Vikki's turn with our phantom menace so I am going to run a couple of errands after work and call it a night.  I have the book club meeting on Saturday, I am really looking forward to it.  Of course one of my errands is to go and buy the book so I can read it tonight and tomorrow :)  Well sue me I have been really busy after all...

***btw the userpic is one of the pics taken by roonie , the girl can take pics and she can tie some rope too***

current mood: satisfied

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Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007
9:52 am - I am late...
Three words that fill most women with terror even when they want to be late.  I missed blog for choice day but I don't care.  Damn skippy I am pro-choice and it pisses me off that we are still having the conversation.  It shouldn't even be a debate who has final say over MY body.  Men have choice why are we still debating whether I have a choice?  Men can choose to leave, men can choose not to support the woman or the child for that matter, men can choose to WEAR A FUCKING CONDOM! 

current mood: good

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Monday, January 22nd, 2007
2:33 pm - Why???

I swear I will go a couple of months just fine then all the weird instant messages start again.  I had weirdo just now and before him I had kinky corvette guy this morning.  Check out what I have to put up with to use ICQ at work...

 do you like to be bad at work??
Me: nope I like having "work" to go to you know what I mean?
then after the what do you do are you married questions I get...
are you into making yourself cum in public places?
Me: I don't make a habit of it no
Me: why is that what you are into?
weirdo: i like women that try to do that - find it a big turn on
weirdo: are you into phone sex???
Me: my personality is much more private what you see is never what you get behind closed doors but it's not for public consumption
weirdo: ah ok - i will stop bothering you then - take care

Umm yeah, why do men think they can just pull a name off the ICQ list and find someone to be "bad" at work or do sex acts for his sexual entertainment in public places?  WTF?  I swear these guys are watching far too much reality television or something.  So this morning I am chatting with MNG and then I get kinky corvette guy who I noticed later I have ignored and blocked 5 times prior.  I guess I wasn't joking when I told MNG I would have blocked him.  I am cutting and pasting kinky corvette and MNG and I are chatting about him, because you know why work when I have kinky corvette guy looking for a threesome?

hey check out this guy who just sent the random hi
cah1470: his profile is hilarious
cah1470: Nick: kinky corvette man
Gender: Male
Birthday: 02/10/1960
Age: 46
Additional Information:
just a fun loving hippy guy that enjoys life and good times...love for a girlfriend to be wild and sexy and love taking weekend trips..be open minded..i am slim and goodlooking and fun to be with...i do love 3somes with other men joining in and i am straight....by the way...no cyber
MNG: ask him if he has another man to do the threesome with
cah1470: lol
cah1470: but he is straight he did point that out
MNG: ask him if he has
cah1470: kinky corvette guy
MNG:: lol
cah1470: you want me to ask kinky corvette guy if he has?
MNG: sure
MNG: are you sure it is not kink chevette man?
cah1470: he said yes, that is his lifestyle
MNG:: he ain't straight
cah1470: lol
cah1470: well right now he is explaining how he can arrange a 3some without cyber
cah1470: because I am curious
MNG: it is just a lure
cah1470: a lure for what?
MNG: to get someone to respond
(09:33:33) cah1470: (09:27:13) CAH1470: well I always read people are "into 3somes" but how exactly do you manage to have one? It just seems like a logistical nightmare it is hard enough to find one person you want to have sex with let alone 2
(09:31:14) chevetteman: when i have a gf i always have her dress up for the occassion...short dress....garter belt...no panties....fishnet stockings...make-up...things like that...dress like a slut actually but sexy too...then we go to bars away from wheer we are because i am a guy that is extremely discrete...then get a hotel room and getting guys to fuck a gf i am with is always very easy
MNG: bullshit, he is a newbie
cah1470: lol
MNG:: you think?
cah1470: yeah I think he is fishing but most people are when they send out the hi IMs most peoples profiles are just fishing expeditions
(09:37:36) cah1470: 09:34:18) CAH1470: are guys put off though?
(09:34:21) chevetteman: it sure isnt hard at all....just need me the right loving gf
(09:35:39) chevetteman: no...the other guys come on to a gf i am with and she gets them excited to fuck her and we pretend i dont know her and she works on me and another guys for a 3some with her and i am always the first one to say hell yea i will do that
MNG: yeah, discreet, weekend trips? Bring her in the side door.
MNG: he is full of shit.
MNG: yeah, okay and threesome with a corvette, someone is going to driving alone.
MNG: i hope he has a sidecar
cah1470: you are terrible you know that
MNG: i just call it like i see it.
cah1470: ok he is 47 years old if he didn't lie
cah1470: he doesn't have anything more interesting than 3somes and girlfriends to put on his profile?
MNG: we think a like, so you are terrible as well
(09:43:31) cah1470: (09:40:07) chevetteman: you think you would enjoy 3somes the way i love them
(09:41:39) CAH1470: I am open to try new things but I am not a fan of random sex acts
(09:42:43) CAH1470: not judging I just don't think it would be my thing
(09:44:13) cah1470: (09:43:50) chevetteman: 3somes arent a random thing with me....its a plan to go out for a 3some night...and its a once in awhile thing....i am the kind of guy that loves to watch a gf fuck another guy and i join in later...i find it so erotic to see a guy fuck a gf i love...thats so hot to me to watch
cah1470: he is lame
MNG: LOL yes
(09:49:03) cah1470: 09:48:24) chevetteman: but mostly i love to see a guys dick fucking a gf's pussy...i love to see it all...just like watching hard core porn movies but its live
cah1470: once again another guy trying to find porn in real life
cah1470: why?
MNG: he is sad, but he did get you to chat with him. i will give him credit for that.
cah1470: nope you got me to chat with him
cah1470: I would have blocked him after reading his profile
MNG: oh, i wanted to see if he had his man lined up. If he had that, it may have not been so lame
cah1470: well it appears he uses his girlfriends as bait so they can perform a live action porn flick for his entertainment
cah1470: why HE wouldnt want to have sex with his girlfriend instead of watching some other guy do it is beyond me
MNG: do you think he has any girlfiends?
cah1470: umm no
(09:58:33) CAH1470: 09:57:06) chevetteman: maybe you would like having a guy like me for a bf then
MNG: is he brain damaged?
CAH1470: yeah I believe so
CAH1470: do you see now why I just ignore them or block them right away?
CAH1470: (09:58:28) chevetteman: do you have a picture
(09:58:39) CAH1470: do you?
(09:59:36) chevetteman: no...i got a new computer and havent had time to do much else on it
MNG: yeah, he has never been in a dating scene, or is way out of practice.
CAH1470: I swear I hate being a girl sometimes;  all we have to do is breathe and you guys start masturbating
MNG: yeah, breathing is a good start
CAH1470: LOL
CAH1470: he has no idea what I look like or if I am even a girl
CAH1470: and he is already asking me if I like anal sex
CAH1470: jeez
MNG: lol
MNG: yeah, he wants live porn
CAH1470: well it is amazing how easily a man can get off, the randomness of it, I could look like jabba from star wars you know
MNG: well, jabba has a very moist mouth
CAH1470:  Men!

current mood: amused

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Wednesday, January 17th, 2007
5:35 pm - First a Miss Priss and now a tease, grumbles...
You scored 79 imagination, 66 confidence, 45 dominance, and 37 generosity!
     You are a KINKY, CONFIDENT, SUBMISSIVE lover who prefers to RECEIVE. This means that: You like relatively kinky sex, and you have the great imagination that will always keep your partner guessing and excited! There's no getting bored with you around, you could never settle for dull sex, you want something fun and new all the time. You aren't afraid to try out anything you hear about. You might just be an intelligent lover who needs to be mentally engaged, or perhaps you have some dirty dark secret kinky desires, but either way, you're never boring. You are pretty confident in bed. This means that you know you can please your lover. Maybe you've read a lot of sex manuals, or have the experience from previous lovers, or just tend to be skilled at whatever you get your hands on, but you're good and you know it. 

     You can really get results and know that you have pure talent, so you won't be hiding away shy, pretending to be all innocent. Your partners love your naughty self assurance, you don't hesitate and this makes you a sensational lover. You tend to be submissive in bed, so you prefer to go along with what your lover likes rather than your own plans. You might like being ordered around and acting out a slave/master fantasy, or perhaps you just get turned on by being helpless and unable to move. Or maybe it's as simple as you lacking courage so prefering firm instructions in bed to make sure you are doing things right. Either way, you won't be dominating your lover anytime soon, and might prefer the missionary position to any others. You would rather Receive than Give. This usually applies more to Oral sex than anything else, and other types of foreplay. This could be for a number of reasons. Maybe you are just very hooked on the sensation of orgasm, maybe you feel you deserve to be treated like a god/goddess, maybe you just aren't confident about your skills when it comes to returning the favour. Maybe you are lazy. Or maybe your partner loves to give and that suits you fine, so everyone is happy. Either way, remember to be a giver sometimes too, as long as your partner likes it. 

     WE SUGGEST YOU TRY: Being Blindfolded and even tied up with scarves, and letting your partner tease, tickle and delight you, in the most tempting way. You are confident and imaginative enough to not mind them doing all sorts of fun things to you, surprises and frustratingly out of your reach pleasure. Just like back and enjoy, and maybe you can return the favour, maybe not.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 99% on imagination

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You scored higher than 99% on confidence

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You scored higher than 99% on dominance

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You scored higher than 99% on generosity
Link: The What's your sexual style? Test written by lu-mina on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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